Goodbye to 2008

So this year has been quite interesting. I'd call it one big roller coaster. It started down, then up, then down, then up, then down, and now finally the year is ending with the coaster going high up in the the sky and still ascending. I have too many to name, too many things to say about this year. All I'm going to say is that I'm leaving this year with a smile on my face. All the events that have occured have lead up to where I am in my life and I couldn't be happier. Thanks for all the caring and joy from the people I'm close to.

I can't wait to see what 2009 has in store for me. <3

Eye

... Am so sick. I just feel so dead.
I need to take a holiday on my holiday... And I just don't want to care anymore.

All of the wasted time
The hours that were left behind
The answers that we'll never find
They don't mean a thing tonight
_BLG

Late night drives, singing our lungs out... I wish I can do that everynight, it's really relieving.
I'll be around.

WAY to end the year but then again, it was bad to start with anyways =_= yay me...

Omegah

Today was the weirdest day this break by far... I'm not sure how to react... LOL coolio. My mom is funny but she doesn't know when to stop joking -_-

Another fork stuck in the road...

Let's see.... so you take my advice in one ear and out the other, and you're basically just too stubborn to listen to what I have to say. I was quite annoyed, irritated, frustrated, short-fused, and last but not least disappointed.
I hope you realize that if you keep this up, history is going to repeat itself.
Like father, like son huh? I'm sure you would want to call that "bonding" but it's not.
So who are you to tell me that I can't handle it? I took that quite offensively... How are you going to hurt me or my feelings by telling me the truth about that subject or whatever it is? I'm not a child... It's you that's the child. At least I did my part to contribute in my family and I'm pretty sure I've had it so much more worse than what you have now or even have had. At least you grew up with both your parents, I don't even know who my father is... At least you didn't have to move so much and see your mom with with different people. At least you haven't had your life turned upside down caused by one peer. At least, and fortunately for you, you haven't had your heart fucked over and over again. And so much more. I am 1,000,000% sure that I've been through worse than you. How are you... and... Who are you to tell me that I can't handle it? I faced my problems, unlike you, I drove to find a solution that will make things better, not use them as an excuse to just ignore it and quit. Look at my living situation now. Do you think I'm absolutely happy with it? No... I'm not but I can't just tell my mom that, can I? I can't just blame her for all the bad events that lead up to this. The only thing I can do is to make things easier for her, including: helping her clean, taking care of my brother, run errands, and just helping her when he needs it. Our relationship used to be like war. Every other day we would argue, if not, once a week, it would get so bad that I would punch walls out of frustration. Every week, it's just tears and tears and no solution because we were both stubborn too. It just takes time for one another to understand from both views. You and I both know that we're strong and independent so again, why would you say that? Are you thinking that's going to protect me? WRONG. So wrong. You are an idiot if you think that. Before you came into my life, and even now, I took care of myself and my family. Even without you, I'd be where I am now in my relationships with my family and my close friends. But I'm pretty sure you know your family alot better than I do, obviously, but you have no hope for them at all, and that's sad. When you bring out your arguments and excuses to me, it seems like you're so sure that they're that way and how they react like that all the time. Is it a fact that they're always that way or going to be that way? Facts leave no room for possibilities. They're not robots... they're human. There's always going to be changes, I guess not now but eventually it gets there. Could be a good or bad change depending on how you approach and help it. There are always possibilities of change. You're just so caught up in your pride or what not to take that stand for the sake of your family.
You just choose not to do anything. Too much brain, not enough heart.
Seize the opportunities with open arms, but still be cautious....

I apologize for even thinking about discussing that subject with you. I just thought you would've wanted a change for the better. And yes, I do think it's my place to encourage you and talk things out with you about it because I'm your girlfriend. But from now on, I just won't say anything about it to upset you. It's your problem right? ... If you don't want my help, so be it.

My boyfriend doesn't know how to spell my full name...

Home

I'm finally home from Davis. Seeing my brother and my mom made me quite happy as they were happy to see me. Although it's only been the first day home, time seems to go by slowly. Not that I want break to be over so quickly but I just want it to be the weekend already because that's when the fun of the holiday spirit begins...
I feel like I have a million things to do but I can't start it til I have what I need. I gotta go get my tune up for my car this week sometime soon. I have a job interview sometime this week also which means I have to drive back up to Davis -_- one day trip... Friday is Eric's party that he's throwing just for the heck of it, then gotta drive back up to Davis again the next morning and stay til sunday to pick up my paycheck at Quickly's. Then Monday is Joseph's winterball. Then tuesday Josie and I are having a christmas party. The 25th-28th, my family is going to LA and I'm not going, so that's that. Just gonna go shopping and watch some movies that are coming out next week. Don't know what I'm doing the week after though... who knows.

The weather has been very chilly, but at least I get to wear my nice winter clothes ^_^

This christmas is going to be pretty good I would say :D

Hahahahahaha!!

I freakin` LOVE and HATE this time of the year.... Thank goodness I have a job.

So stressful, and frustrating plus it's hella cold. But all in the end, all that head banging and frustration will be worth it... hopefully... Just a couple more weeks.... I can do it...

I seriously don't want to deal with stupid people anymore... it's making me so angry at myself for putting up with it.

On the plus side, I finished them all... hooray! Just have to wait for the right moment.

You think you know, but you have nooo idea...
"I'm selfish, impatient, and a little insecure. I'm out of control and at times I'm hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best"
-Marilyn Monroe

JingleBalls Concert

So this past wednesday I was invited to a yearly JingleBall concert in Sacramento. The performers were Chantel, BOYSLIKEGIRLS, DavidArchuleta, KatyPerry, and JesseMcCartney. Concert lasted for about 5-6 hours? It was pretty long and it wasn't that great. The only performance that I was looking forward to and was really good was BoysLikeGirls. They were good, got the crowd going and all. I thought JesseMcCartney is tryng to hard to go all r&b, he should just stick to pop... lol, but he did look good in a suit ;] Chantel was just horrible, the only song she sang that was good was T-shirt. DavidArchuleta was good too, such a talented singer. KatyPerry was kinda weird, not in a bad but her regular voice is kinda squeaky; very different from her singing voice. Overall, the concert was ok. At least we got floor seats.. whoohoo!

Thunder - BoysLikeGirls

Skip to 1:35 if you get bored of them yelling about nonsense... LOL

Can't wait for their new album coming out summer 09`

Turkey Break

Thanksgiving break has been quite relaxing and fun. Time well spent I would say. Came home wednesday night, ate ComTam and had some frozo's. Black Friday was ok, got so little sleep though. My mom bought a 42 inch plasma at best buys.... lucky her.. haha. Went shopping with Kenyon and Joseph, then Josie and Eric showed up a little after. Just got some shirts from gap and the guys got some sweaters. Been there since like 530am, went home at around 1030am. Slept til 530ish. Woke up and went to go eat Halu Ramen with Joseph. Saturday, hungout with Joseph all day; CUE'd, ate and walked around in downtown paloalto, went to HelloDesserts for Vanilla Creme Brulee... yummy. Then we hungout the rest of the night at Josie's place and Eric too. Rented three movies: Pathology, Baby Mama, and another one with Paul Walker in it. Watched them all that night... lol. Eric went home, and we all went to sleep at around 130am. Finally, woke up at noon to eat spring rolls... yummy. Then we started to head out at 3pm to hangout with Eric at valco. Took more CUE, then ate at BreakTime in Cupertino village. Don't go to Breaktime for desserts, it sucks and it's really overpriced. So then, that wa the end of our break. Josie and I said goodbye to our bf's then headed home to Davis, but felt so drowsy so we took a pit stop and took a nap in the parking lot of a plaza for about 45 mins. Got home at around 1030pm and cleaned up. That was about the end of it. Pretty relaxing. Spending time with my baby was very delightful<3