Running on One Hour of sleep today =\

I am frightened.


Congee for dinner? Yumm... I wonder if the chefs will use my tupperware for the congee instead of their small ass bowls.

Working today..

Man, business is hella slow... yesterday I had to work 11am to 6pm and only made barely 300 in that whole shift. I remember like 6 months ago, in 7 hours we would make about 3000. Damn, that really sucks. Well at least I'm getting paid to do nothing here. lol. Just stting around, make a few drinks, go on facebook, go on aim. Although Igot paid 15 an hour at Teledyne for doing nothing also. I think I'd rather have that job... lol. Sit in my cubicle, yee. I was baller. I'm working right now as I'm blogging.. lol. But only 11am to 4pm today.
Had another party fail last night.. lol. But I took like 6 shots or something. George took 8 or 9? Lucy probably matched him or lower. Vu was DD and Jenn took a few with me. Then we all went to taco bell at 1:55am and they close at 2am. The register guy was pretty funny. Since they had to close at 2am, these white people who were like tipsy or some shit kept going in and out of the store so then the manager noticed and started yelling at them to shut the door but they didn't hear so the register guy says out loud "these mother fuckers" then barges over there to shut the door and tell them to keep out or stay in. But that wasn't the last of them, they kept going in and out again so the register guy was like "you dumb son of a bitch" and goes over there again just locks the door... lol then he walks back to the register to take more orders and apologizes to the customer.. lol.
I'm glad I don't have to deal with people like that. At Quickly's, it's like being in China, although I've never been to China, Quickly's is like a little Chinatown for me.. lol. That also includes the chefs wo can't speak or understand English -_- 99 percent of the people that come in Quickly's are Asian, and you know how Asians are... well mannered, quiet. Well... most of them. then there's the frat people, still better behaved then thos white people, not to be racist... just the truth.. LOL. Sigh.
Berkeley people left this weekend for move-in. Damn school is coming fast... Yuxin left Saturday morning to move into her triple with Aubry. I will definitely miss her, our drunk nights, and all the stupid shit that we do. Those long pointless talks to the really really deep conversations that lasted hours on end. And we still haven't ran out of things to talk about. I'm going to miss going to her place or just hanging out with her when I want to get away or whatever. I know I can depend on her. Hanging out with her is never dull. She has definitely opened my eyes to certain things in life. I hope I don't get lazy to go visit her in Berkeley though... lol that would be epic fail for our friendship. She is definitely one of my closest friends and I only hope that our friendship grows from here.
On another friendship note, I miss Josie. I miss cracking jokes with her, heck I miss it when she cracks jokes about me even... But it's hard for me to approach her now. I feel like she doesn't care or something. I miss my best friend. Sigh. Maybe it's just the summer...
So we get to stay in Saratoga until September 4th and just pay for rent those 4 days. Cleaning out that place is going to be SUCH a betch... T_T I do not want to clean... lol. Then Glacier is letting us move in on the 4th too and not the 10th, so we don't have to worry about being homeless for 10 days anymore.. yay! I wonder what next year is going to be like... How exciting.

Well there's a rush coming in the store, yay. So I must end my blog right hurr.

Promises are important to me.

Piano is my therapy and I guess instrumentals too

So my brother James came up to Davis this week to visit. Just him. It's been quite interesting having him around in the whole college atmosphere. He's been taking it quite well too. I think he likes it here... lol. I have certainly missed him a bunch. Seeing him again and spending time with him has never felt so warming in a long time. I love my brother. Oh yeah, just recently found out that Walter might come up to visit too. James is staying til Wednesday I think, so I think Walter will stay that long with him too. Those two with me up here will indeed be interesting.
Saw the meteor shower briefly a few days ago with Fanny, Quyen, George, and James. The only reason I would go camping is to watch the stars. I hear it is the best.
Had a sleepover last night which I didn't even sleep at -_- lol. But I guess it was all worth it. Saw 500 Days Of Summer with them at the Varsity theatre, pretty good movie but I wish there was an alternate ending. I do understand why now, just from watching that movie. We got into a lot of deep conversations surprisingly. Some people even opened up. Interesting personalities indeed.
Berkeley Tournament this weekend. Pretty excited. Playing BC doubles with Fanny and BC mixed with Kenyon. Haven't played in a tournament since Davis Spring Open. I hope Fanny and I will do well.
I don't understand where these thoughts come from. I don't understand how these thoughts even form. What you see through your eyes aren't always true. Assuming the worst will lead to chaos. What goes through your mind is sick. Your judgement is fairly poor, sorry to say. I don't know what you want. What more do I have to do without having to stray from my beliefs? I'm trying to untwist my cap little by little. Supersigh.
I've been kind of sleep deprived lately. Eyedrops for the win.
Started to work at Quicklys again which is good I guess. I want to be reminded of how good it feels to earn my money.
I guess I somewhat understand or can relate to how Adora feels, along wth Summer.
I am not sad. But not as happy as I wish. Not mad. Maybe a little frustrated or flustered? Confused even? But I need to bite my tongue. Right now is not the right time....

I am just... Content.

Alcohol-Fest?

I'M THERE.

I'm not an alcoholic I promise :)

August 1st

I am going to drown myself in alcohol tonight. Wish me luck.