Piano is my therapy and I guess instrumentals too

So my brother James came up to Davis this week to visit. Just him. It's been quite interesting having him around in the whole college atmosphere. He's been taking it quite well too. I think he likes it here... lol. I have certainly missed him a bunch. Seeing him again and spending time with him has never felt so warming in a long time. I love my brother. Oh yeah, just recently found out that Walter might come up to visit too. James is staying til Wednesday I think, so I think Walter will stay that long with him too. Those two with me up here will indeed be interesting.
Saw the meteor shower briefly a few days ago with Fanny, Quyen, George, and James. The only reason I would go camping is to watch the stars. I hear it is the best.
Had a sleepover last night which I didn't even sleep at -_- lol. But I guess it was all worth it. Saw 500 Days Of Summer with them at the Varsity theatre, pretty good movie but I wish there was an alternate ending. I do understand why now, just from watching that movie. We got into a lot of deep conversations surprisingly. Some people even opened up. Interesting personalities indeed.
Berkeley Tournament this weekend. Pretty excited. Playing BC doubles with Fanny and BC mixed with Kenyon. Haven't played in a tournament since Davis Spring Open. I hope Fanny and I will do well.
I don't understand where these thoughts come from. I don't understand how these thoughts even form. What you see through your eyes aren't always true. Assuming the worst will lead to chaos. What goes through your mind is sick. Your judgement is fairly poor, sorry to say. I don't know what you want. What more do I have to do without having to stray from my beliefs? I'm trying to untwist my cap little by little. Supersigh.
I've been kind of sleep deprived lately. Eyedrops for the win.
Started to work at Quicklys again which is good I guess. I want to be reminded of how good it feels to earn my money.
I guess I somewhat understand or can relate to how Adora feels, along wth Summer.
I am not sad. But not as happy as I wish. Not mad. Maybe a little frustrated or flustered? Confused even? But I need to bite my tongue. Right now is not the right time....

I am just... Content.