Oh My God...

If you know me well enough you know that I don't say God... ever... You'll know when I'm mad because I'll say God. I'm so annoyed that I can't even sleep. -_- I have a meeting with the captains this afternoon and I really have to wake up to go talk to them.
I don't wanna worry or think about this crap anymore.. My GOD...
I just wanna enjoy my weekend, get the first 4 days of next week over with and play in the berkeley open. Sigh.
I just can't shake this feeling... -_-
Does my mind want it to happen so bad that it's over-powering me?

So tonight, Josie and I headed over to Quyen's and had an officer's meeting with badminton. Talked about the spring open tournament, preparing for it, and setting up deadlines. Talked about uniforms, and sweaters. Volunteers and etc. Pretty interesting. Although we did get off-topic a few times but it's all good. Meeting took awhile too.
Anyway, Josie and I are going to Jackson tonight. Probably with Jiaxi maybe, Miranda and Will. But yea, probably gonna play some poker. Get some practice in I guess. Then back to the bay saturday afternoon which Josie isn't coming with, just Tim (badminton friend). Then back to Davis again sometime before 5pm so I don't miss much of the superbowl which I don't really care for this year... then I have work at 8pm to 12am. And then the long Monday... =_= Sigh. I don't have time for much anymore, which I'm kinda glad. Don't have to commit myself to anything else but school, work, and badminton which is working quite well for me. Don't have to worry about useless things. Just ME time. Although I wish there were more than 24 hours in a day so that I could get more sleep in... lol. Where are those red bulls when I need them? haha. But neh... since I work at Quickly's now, I can get all the milk tea I want, and it really does keep me up o_O Well at least they're healthier than energy drinks, but I do like jaiger bombs :p Yumm. I don't know what to do when I actually have free time though. I could sleep, eat, but I wanna keep my sleeping cycle normal and not all wacko like it was before. And like, I don't feel like myself lately, I feel like I'm carrying some really heavy loads on my shoulders, or maybe I'm just tired? I want to do something where I can be worry-free for like a night or a weekend or so. I don't want to worry about anything and just have fun. "Party like you just don't care" Mmm..

Seems somebody put out the moon, now the road is a mine field.